Coolest compliment!!!

So I post this before and after picture of myself on my family Groupme and my brother gave me one of the coolest compliments everrrrr!!!

He said, referring to my before and after picture "Same Self-Confidence though, not very many people can say that!" And I thought, that's just about THE COOLEST COMPLIMENT I've gotten during my whole weight loss journey! No, no, THAT IS THE COOLEST COMPLIMENT I HAVE GOTTEN!!!  Although, I would HAVE to say, that I think what my brother ACTUALLY meant is "Same SELF-ESTEEM" Because self-esteem is overall how you view and value yourself as a person, self-confidence is how you feel in your ability to do something.  Because one of my biggest fears with weight loss surgery, which I will go into more details in another post, was that in the process of losing weight, I would ALSO LOSE ME!!! :,( 

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I talked HERE about my over all self-esteem from a legit mental health test I had to take before they started the weight loss journey process!!! The phsycholgist said he had NEVER had a client score as high as me..bahahahaaaa 

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For example, my confidence may be high when it comes to public speaking or writing because I KNOW that these are strong areas in my abilities, buuuut when it comes to math, my self-confidence may not be very high, not because I think lowly of myself as a person, BUUUUT because I know this is a weakness of mine, HOWEVERRR, self-confidence can improve with learning and studying...soooo if anyone out there wants to tutor me in math...HEEEEEEEY...LOL Anyways, soooo in certain areas, my self-confidence HAS gone up with weight loss when it comes to being able to wear certain clothes because they look better now and in physical activities because with weight loss has come increased ability to become better in physical activities!!! 

However, my SELF-CONFIDENCE, which is what my brother was ACTUALLY referring to, IS THE SAME!!! And TO ME that is THE COOLEST COMPLIMENT EVERRRRR!!! Because ultimately what that means is this, I'm STILL THE SAME ME! ME has NOT been lost in the midst of MY WEIGHT LOSS!!! Believe it or NOT, that was LITERALLY my biggest fear OVERALL with having weight loss surgery, I didn't want to LOSE ME...I LOVE BEING ME!!!

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I still know what I knew BEFORE weight loss, I am a child of God, my heart, my life, my being belongs to Him! I was made by Him, and FOR HIM! I am beautiful BECAUSE He created me in HIS IMAGE! I am HIS handiwork! His masterpiece! HIS DESIGN!!! My outward appearance may have changed, BUT WHO I AM HAS NOT, I am STILL God's girl...I am still my hilarious, warm-hearted, quirky, fun-loving SELF!!!

I AM SITLL MARY...

I AM STILL MAR BEAR!!! 

♥Mary Frances :)

Looking from ABOVE!!!

I LOVE being on the airplane and just looking at the clouds...it just totally awwws ME!!! Like they are just like right there...sooo close to you that you just want to reach out and touch the fluffy things!!!

And the weirderst thing is when you have flown up SOOOOO high in the airplane and you look out the window and the clouds are BENEATH YOU!!! Its soooo cRaZy!!! To think that these things, that usually are soooo high up and out of your reach are actually NOW UNDER YOU!!!

Buuuuut it gets even cRaZiEr because you flying higher and higher up and at one point I looked out and the clouds were sooooo FAR below me that they looked like they were just floating on top of the ocean!!! I was like NOW WAY!!! I mean, know how much higher they are than the ocean. I have stood many a times at the ocean and looked up...waaaaay...waaaay...WAAAAAAY up into the sky and seen the clouds up on high...BUUUUT NOW here I was flying...up soooo HIGH ABOVE the clouds that THEY looked EXTREMELY close to the ocean!!! In fact, they were WAAAAAY closer to the ocean than they were to me anymore!!!

AND I got to thinkin that, I BET that must be the way God sees things. There are times in our lives that our hopes and dreams seem sooooooo FAR ABOVE US!!! They seem way out of our reach...like we would never be able to get to them. BUT, thats not the way God sees it!!! He just looks down and the things that WE think are soooo far out of our reach...God sees how close they really are to us!!!

Don't give up my friends!!!!

 Whateverrr it is that your WANTING...a job, a better job, a house, a degree, schooling, where to live, a best friend, a sibling, citizenship,  a baby, adoption, a healing, ministry, A SPOUSE...hahaHa...a lost loved one to be saved...or just direction for your future, WHATEVERRR it is don't give up!!! Just keep waiting on God...It may SEEM FAR...but from God's view its CLOSE...way, way closer than you think!!!

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"But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it."

(Romans 8:25)

 ♥Mary Frances :)