Thursday, June 28, 2012

DESPERATE!!!

I recently had this HUGE ordeal with a tooth that needed a root canal. I was in EXTREME pain...my face was infected and my WHOLE face got puffy and I could feel the infection rising higher towards my eye...and I kinda like FLIPPED OUT!!! So my sis found this emergency dentist for me and cuz I was like SOOOO OUT of it...my mom decided that SHE WOULD DRIVE ME...trust me...it was NOT safe for me to drive...LOL!!!
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So we're drivin there and I am in such HORRID pain and I feel soooo sick I can't even keep my eyes open and keep fallin asleep. Weeeellll...when we get closer to the dentist my mom is like okaaaaaaaay its like RIGHT here somewhere but I don't see the sign...and she is like lookin and I just opened my eyes and I was like BAM...MOM...BEST CHOICE DENTAL... ITS RIGHT THERE!!! The sign seemed soooooooo HUGE to me I don't know HOW she could miss it!!!
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Soooo I go in the doc does the first half of my root canal, the doc fixes me up so that the infection and pain are gone and I get out and feel better and go on with my life until the next Monday when I have my next appointment for the second half of my root canal!
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So I drive over to where I am supposed to go and I CAN NOT FIND the dentist!!! I am searching everywhere and it is NO WHERE to be seen. So I call my mom and she is like well it sounds like your right at the cross streets, you SHOULD be seeing it, especially since your the one that saw it last time when I couldn't even find the sign...and I'm thinkin yeah that was a HUGE sign I KNOW i'll see it!!!
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My mom says call the dentist office and tell them where your at. So I call the office and tell the receptionist and she is like, OH your right here, the office is behind the abandoned gas station. Soooo I see the gas station and I am driving around NOT seeing it and then FINALLY I spot this ghetto little sign...

I'm like WAIT...I thought it was a big O sign...buuuuut its NOT!!! AND I was thinkin...WHY was it soooooo hard for me to find it this time buuuuut sooooo easy for me to spot out last time??? As I thought about it, I realized that the difference between THIS time and LAST time was...
DESPERATION!!!

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THe last time I was in so much pain and I felt soooo HORRIBLE AND SICK...I felt soooooooo DESPERATE to find the dentist!!! But this time, even tho I knew I needed to get back to the dentist to complete my root canal, the pain was gone and I know longer felt sick...even tho the problem wasn't completely solved...I wasn't DESPERATE this time!!!
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When I was DESPERATE for help...the answer was soooooooo OBVIOUS to me!!! The sign might as well have been neon, florescent with flashing lights. I was thinkin about how we are like this in life, when we are going through hard times and we are sooooo DESPERATE the answer is soooo easy to find. God is RIGHT there...you can feel him...you turn to him for EVERYTHING!!!
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Your continually praying, pleeding with God, your searching his word, every time the preacher preaches your EARS are open JUST WAITING for a word from God...YOU ARE DESPERATE!!! Then as soon as things start getting better, it is soooo easy for us to forget to turn to God. We can drive around through life searching for the answer...buuuuuut if we would just get DESPERATE or KEEP a desperation in our spirits for the things of God we could see that the ANSWER is RIGHT THERE!!!
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Prayer, the Word of God, repentence, preaching...THESE ARE THE THINGS that we NEED!!! We need to keep our hearts continually DESPERATE for the the things of God.

"And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." 
(Jeremiah 29:13)
♥Mary Frances :)