Weeeeeellllll I'm obviously BEHIND buuuuut here goes Augest!!!
Hanging out with Grammy Kathy again, that was a treat and a blast from the past!!!!
My first latte art...
Finding slides at Fashion Square...this COULD be why kids LOVE ME...hee, hee!!!
I ATE FISH!!!
Long story short, don't promise Stultz you'll eat fish if he catches one...I'm not sure if I thought he wasn't going to catch one OR if I thought he wouldn't hold me to my word...Anywayz, he caught them AND HE HELD ME TO MY WORD!!!
Ash's love birds!!!
He should win after analyzing the directions for 30 minutes....BAHAHAHA!!!
I was talking to my friend one time and they were saying, have you noticed how Sis. Ching-Chong seems to favor her one grandchild, lil Ching more than all the others?! I thought about it for a moment and then I said, you know, I don't know that it is that she ACTUALLY favors or loves THAT grandchild MORE than all her other grandkids. I said, I think its just THAT, out of all of Sis. Ching-chong's grandkids, that grandchild shows her THE MOST LOVE!!! And I don't think that its that, her other grandchildren don't love her, they just don't show her their love like that one grandchild!
I mean, that little child will cry when they don't see her! They run and throw their arms around her, yell out GRANDMA when she walks into the room and smother her in kisses!!! and When she is sick they worry about her and will ask for prayer for her. I said, so I don't think its that she loves THAT child MORE than all the other grandchildren. That grandmother, is ONLY returning to that grandchild all the LOVE that they show her, which happens to be MORE than her other grandchildren. However, I feel like she would respond in the same way to her other grandkids if they were that way towards her.
That got me to thinking about God. Sometimes we think that God plays favorites, but could it possibly be, that God is just responding to us in the amount of love that we SHOW HIM???
In the Bible God says, "As it is written, Jacob have I loved, but Esau have I hated." Now, of course I stand to be corrected if I am wrong, but I wonder if it was REALLY that God originally JUST HATED Esau, or was it because Esau could care less about the things of God?
When someone shows disdain towards us, it is our natural reaction to in turn not care too much for that person as well. We all know that there are certain people in our lives that we "LOVE" simply because we are Christians and the Bible commands us to love one another! OR as the humorous saying goes, "if it wasn't for YOU, how would I know how to LOVE THE UNLOVEABLE???" When someone has no interest and could care less about us, it is our natural reaction to in turn feel that same way about them.
I think that the way God felt about Esau was because of the way Esau felt about God. Esau could care less about God. He disdained the things of God and God in return disdained Esau. Jacob on the other hand desired the things of God. And all though he didn't go about doing things the right way, HIS MOTIVES were after the things of God. I believe that God LOVED Jacob, simply because Jacob LOVED GOD!!!
The Bible says that God ALREADY LOVES us,
"We love him, because he first loved us." (1 John 4:19)
BUUUUUUT what is it that would cause God to show EVEN MORE love to one individual than another???I take care of a little boy that LOVES ME, I don't know what it is about me that he does BUT I do know that because HE LOVES ME, I in turn can't help but love him back SO MUCH. Because HE LOVES ME, I can't help but want to do things for him and give him things that show in return my adoration to him. Could it possibly be that this is the way God, whom we were made in the image of, is as well towards us. He ALREADY loves us, but is there a way to get him to show us EVEN MORE LOVE???
I believe that THE MORE LOVING we are towards God, THE MORE LOVING, he in return will be towards us. The word loving is NOT just an emotion but an action. There are ACTIONS we can take to show God our love towards him through obedience, prayer, holiness, modesty, devotions, praise and worship. I believe that the more things we do to show God that we love him, THE MORE things he in return will do to show us that he loves us.
I've made it a part of a my daily prayer to ask God, to help me to LOVE HIM MORE!! I want to love him MORE today, than I did yesterday and I want to love him MORE tomorrow than I did today! I want my love for him to expand. I ask God to increase my love towards him. Like a little child finds the benefits in truly showing an adult their love, their are benefits in showing God our love!!! The MORE you LOVE God, THE MORE He will LOVE YOU!!!
You want to be MORE LOVED BY GOD???
JUST LOVE HIM MORE!!!
"Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind." (Matthew 22:37)
Sooooooo since the weigh loss surgery, there are these monthly support groups that you can go too, its supposed to me like you know, talking about weight loss, buuuuuuuuuut, a lot of times it turns into drama and sob stories...(Kinda like testimony service can...BAHAHAHA!!!) If you could hear some of the drama these people talk about as we go around the room, I'm just sitting there like,
You all need MORE THAN WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY...
YA'ALL NEED JESUS!!!
Sooooo the MOST COMMON THEME, especially among the woman is this, I've lost all this weight and I still feel fat! Annnnnnd I'm sitting there like, okaaaaaaaaay the reason WHY we all still feel like we're STILL FAT, is because, WE ARE!!! Buuuuuuut we're NOT AS FAT!!! LOLOL (Although my preferred word is ALWAYS FLUFFY!!!)Liiiiiiike for realz!!! I just soooo wanna shout it out buuuut I'm pretty sure I would get stoned for that!!!
Then it's someone else's turn, I still don't feel like I'm Pretty!!! Then someone else joins, I know, I feel soo ugly!!! Annnnnd I'm just like sitting there like, sooooo ummmmm...like, AM I THE ONLY person in here that prays as they lose weight,God don't let me get conceited, KEEP ME HUMBLE as I continue to lose weight!!!'?!?!?!
Buuuuuuuuuuuuut let me tell you all something, IF YOU SINCERELY PRAY for God to keep you humble, that is a prayer that he will have NO PROBLEM answering, TRUST ME!!! ;))))
So let me share with you a few incidents that God has used to answer that prayer...
#1 That person that walks up to you and is like, OH, you've lost weight! ME: Oh thank you! Them: your welcome, you look good...ME:About to say thank you again...buuuuut interrupted by them, "BUUUUUUUT KEEP LOSING!!!"
#2 The guy that walks up to you and says, HEY! You've lost some weight huh! ME: YES! Them: Yeah, your STARTING to look good! ME: Refraining from saying, WHY THANK YOU, your JUST AS UGLY AS ALWAYS!!! BAHAHAHA!!!
#3 The girl that's just hardly tipping the scale at 100 pounds!Girl: "Oh hey girl! Like, did you lose some weight!? ME: Yeah girrrrrrrl!!! Girl: OMW! I KNEW IT!!! Liiiiiiiike I can totally see it!!! Me: AWWWW THANKS GIRL!!! Girl: YEAH, like, seriously, I think your face is thinner, I can TOTALLY SEE IT IN YOUR FACE!!! Me: Why thank you! I've lost 85 pounds since you've last seen me, (You'de me DEAD if you lost that much weight) buuuuuut you can totally see it in my face, THANKS GIRL!!!
Baby sitting my nephew Joseph one evening, I've literally just reached my lowest weight I've been, MY WHOLE TEEN and ADULT LIFE, he says, Hey Aunt Mary, just to let you know, don't get offended buuuuuuut your looking A LITTLE fat tonight! Shocked i'm like, JOSEPH!!! WHY would you say that!?!?!?! He looks at me completely bewildered, He's like, AUNT MARY, first of all, I told you not to get offended and second of all, I said only A LITTLE FAT!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I honestly think he may have meant it as a compliment, like, your ONLY A LITTLE FAT NOW!!!
BUUUUUUUUUUT I think this last one is my all time favorite, liiiiiiike it WINS THE PRIZE of God keeping me humble!!! AHAHAHAHA!!! Sooooooo back in June when I had shingles, I had to go to the doctor to get a prescription for shingles to get rid of them. So since I don't actually have a primary care doc I get a recommendation from my surgeon's office. I go in, the doc is looking at my shingles and we're just talking and I tell her I got a recommendation from my surgeon Dr. Reyonoso, she's like, OH so are you one of his bariatric patients? I'm like yes I am! She's like, Oh that's SO GOOD!!! And where are you at right now in this process? I'm like well I'm 7 months past my surgery date! She's like, OH, you've ALREADY HAD THE SURGERY???
YEEEEEESSSSSSSSS TRUE STORY!!! She ACTUALLY SAID THAT TO ME!!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm just sitting there like, lady, don't quit your day job and think about becoming a life coach or anything!!! AHAHAHA!!! It's good thing I was blessed with TWO THINGS: Good self-esteem and a Good sense of humor!!!
Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaay GOD, I think we're good for AT LEAST another 10 pounds before you need to worry about me needing to be humbled again...AT LEAST 10 MORE...Really God, I'm good for now, REALLY... jus sayin!!! ;)))) ♥Mary Frances :)
I remember a time when I was 18, My sister and I went to a youth camp in Oklahoma. The dorm buildings were solid brick buildings with now windows anywhere. One night as we were sleeping in our very uncomfortable bunks, I suddenly woke up to pitch blackness. I mean it was SOOOO DARK I could NOT even see my hand in front of me. As scared as I was, I knew from the whispers around me that there was a storm that had caused a black out which caused every light in the campgrounds to go out. It was dark my friends, DARK!!!
Even though I was scared and uncomfortable with the lights being out, I figured I would just go back to sleep, after all that made the most logical sense to do right??? I'm closing my eyes to go back to sleep when I hear a whisper, Mary! Mary! It was my sister, she was like, lets go to the bathroom...I'm like, just go to sleep! She's like, No lets go! I'm like, we can't see ANYTHING, there is no way we're going to make it out of this big room of bunks, into the hall and THEN find the bathroom in this pitch blackness! She's like, NO LETS GO!
Well sure enough WE GOT LOST! I'm telling you all it was one of the scariest feelings ever! We were literally lost in out own dorm room. You have to understand that per a room there are about 30 bunks set up and we were completely lost amongst them. We had no idea where our beds were anymore or where the door to the hallway was.
Holding hands we felt along the beds and walls, tripping over stuff till we finally made it to the hallway. Once in the hallway we were greeted the same blackness. Now we had no idea which room was ours OR how to get to the bathroom. We had no idea what to do as we walked along.
Struggling through the darkness, we suddenly saw a tiny sliver of light. We realized that it was coming up from the dorm door. It was light from the moon seeping through the bottom door. It was such a tiny bit of light but to us it may as well have been a torch shining through. Thinking we could open the door all the way and let more moonlight in the dorm to find our way around. Excitedly, We RAN to THE LIGHT!!!
Weeeeeeellllll August 25th I celebrated my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY since my weight loss surgery!!
85 pounds in one year!!! To say that I and a lot of people expected me to be further than this in one year is TRUTH!!! There are people that lost 100 pounds in 6 months, buuuuuuuut FOR ME, weight loss surgery was NEVER MAGIC!!! It just has made it POSSIBLE to push through and keep going! I think FOR ME, its better this way. This way I've never had to NOT be in the habit of WORKING to lose weight!!! I have time to adjust and get used to slowly seeing myself change...
. Things I accomplished this past year: 85 pounds lost I'm the smallest I've been my WHOLE teen and adult life!!! Diabetic FREE Blood pressure 115/85 Became a hiker HIKED a HUGE MOUNTAIN FIT ON ALL THE RIDES I've been DYING to ride on for years but NEVER FIT!!! (Silver bullet, Supreme Scream, Ghost Rider, #norideleftbehind No more seat belt extension on the airplane Don't need caffeine in the mornings anymore Started wearing belts, BECAUSE I CAN NOW!!!
Went down to a size 11 shoe
Run the aisles faster and be able to jump and dance MORE at church!!!
Get down to 220 so I can HIKE DOWN the Grand Canyon and ride the burros back up(220 is the weight limit to ride their burros)
Start bike riding
Learn how to play volley ball really well
Go white water river rafting (Ok I could probably do that NOW, I just gotta wait for an opportunity!!!
Cross my legs all dainty lady like LOL
BMI in the 30's (Okaaaaay so that's doc's goal LOL)
My GOAL SIZE IS:HEALTHY WITH A SIDE OF FLUFF!!!(Okay soooo the credit for that goes to Hanna) OR TAILORED FLUFFY!!! (Submitted by Stultz)I Like both of these because they indicate MEin THE HEALTHIEST VERSION OF ME!!!(I had a few of my own ideas A few others that I liked were, Slenderly-fluffy, Fun size fluffy(Except that indicates me being little, which i'm NOT ever going to be, I mean, I'm NOT a little person!) Light and Fluffy!!!
One thing that has always been very important to me in this journey was that I remained ME!! They said that there are a lot of times personality changes in people when they have HUGE weight loss and that HORRIFIED ME!!! I don't want my personality to change, I LOVE BEING ME!!! I am happy to say that I consulted separately with two of my closest friends and they both said that they don't see ANYTHING in my personality that has changed, aside from being more health consciencous and active!
Anything annoying about losing weight??? UH nooooooooooo!!! Well, the only thing was when my first pair of shoes were TOO BIG!!! I wasn't exactly excited about having to buy new shoes, its NOT like people are like, OMW, you lost so much weight, I can see it on your feet!!! LOL . Also, people think when you have weight loss surgery that its just MAGICAL and that you now have it MADE IN THE SHADE!!! Its NOT like, that! It IS WORK! Buuuuut it's like an opportunity to get help and its UP TO YOU to receive it!!! You have to grab a hold of it and take advantage of the opportunity you have!!! .
Would I recommend weight loss surgery???
FOR ME, it was one of THE BEST, scariest, hardest, BUUUUUT BEST decisions I ever made!!! IF you are considered morbidly obese, and have tried over and over again to lose weight but NOT getting were you need to be, I would say to study it, research it, get educated on it, seek council and PRAYERFULLY consider it!!! For 10 years I tried my hardest to lose weight. In my early 20's I was 408, I got down 50 pounds but spent basically 10 years going up and down with another 50 pounds. If you chose to do this, don't go the cheap route and just get it done in a forigen country unless they are equipped and monitoring you the same way they do here. Don't make your decision on a whim! Understand that this is NOT a quick fix! It's NOT magic, YOU WILL HAVE TO WORK! (Although, NOT as much as some people depending on your body, ESPECIALLY if your male, my surgeon tells me every visit, I'm Sorry, don't hate me, woman just lose weight MORE SLOWLY! . Also, don't do it unless you are ready to say GOOD BYE to carbonated drinks, alcohol, cigarettes, and certain medicines FOREVERRRR!!! . And go in to it knowing that there will be people that think you took "THE EASY WAY OUT!" They will criticize your decision, IGNORE THEM!!! . Also know that, weight loss surgery and losing weight WILL NOT give you good self esteem, yes it can help, BUUUUT, it's NOT magic, only YOU can see that your value comes from being created by God, no surgeon, diet or mirror can do that for you!!!
.I love being brave and wearing whatever colors I want now...I NEVERRRR would have worn that mustard gold before...
Annnnnnnnnnd I LOOOOOOVe having funnnnnn!!!
Aside from being healthy, my main goal aside from all the cute outfits I can now wear, my main goal for weight loss, is for me NOT to be hindered from any activities, BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT!!! I don't want my weight to hinder me. I want to create healthy habits I can live with for life and live an active lifestyle!!! #Norideleftbehind #Iwillcrushthatmountain
What should you do when the volume on your phone stops working???
Sooooooo the other day I was listening to a very good story on Audible...
Okaaaaaaay shout out to LYNN AUSTIN, she is like one of THE MOST AMAZING AUTHORS EVERRRRR!!! Hanna has been telling me about her for YEARS, buuuuuuut I just figured it was HISTORICAL fiction, I probably wouldn't be able to understand them if they weren't going in THE IMAGINATION STATION...ahahaha...anyway, AMAZING WRITING SKILLS that lady has!!!
So anyway, I'm listening to Audible and then I paused to do something, sometimes I can't even listen and do something else....LOL soooooooooooo I put the story back on and NOTHING comes out of my phone!!! I'm like, WHAT???? So I higher the volume, still nothing! I higher it to THE HIGHEST volume level and NOTHING!!! I'm like, OH SNAP!!! The speakers on my phone must be broken, I'm like in the middle of devestation, ready to lay hands on my phone because I'm DESPERATE to finish this amazing story...
When I flip my phone around and something goes flying towards me...
MY EAR BUDS!!!
That's WHY the speakers on my phone weren't working....
I FORGOT TO PUT MY EAR BUDS BACK IN MY EARS!!!
Anywayz,once I got those back in my ears, THE SPEAKERS WORKED GREAT!!! Funny how that works, Hee, hee!!! ;)
Soooooooooo what should you do when your volume stops working??? Try putting your ear buds back in!!!
♥Mary Frances :) P.S. The story had a PERFECTLY WONDERFUL ENDING!!! I HIGHLY recommend this book!!!
Literally, THIS IS HOW I FEEL TODAY!!! And that's with sleeping in til after 10!!!! I'm normally not a downer on Mondays, buuuuuut OMW I've been sooooooooooo SICK!!!! Because I'm an airheadMARY it literally took me two days to realize I was SICK!!! Like, OMW, there's a reason WHY your feeling freezing cold in REALLY HOT WEATHER...
YOU HAVE A FEVER!!!
I've been lying in bed for the last two days and finally am MAKING myself go to the doctor later...I HATE TO PAY that $25 copay, buuuuuuuut I ain't getting any better and working is calling me!!! All day today I couldn't decide if I was feeling nausa or hunger pangs or nausa cuz I was hungry...Heading to the doc soon...
Did I meet last weeks goals...Okaaaaaaay 5 outta 7 days is pretty good...I've been so sick I think I can be excused!!! 2, 4 and 5 tho, BAAAAAMMMMM!!! Goals for this week, get better, get some REAL WRITING DONE, BLOG DAILY!!!
For anyone that is struggling with the battle of the mind I suggest reading the book, "Loving God with all of your mind" The author shares her testimony of overcoming depression and mind torment through memorization of God's word!!!