"Mmmmm....Call me cRaZy, INSANE, you can even say that I'm not right, BUT ONE question I'de like to present:
WHAT'S WRONG WITH LIVING RIGHT?!
I'm doing what I know to do, serving Jesus is the way... I was in darkness but He showed me the light, Now I'm gonna serve The Lord with ALL my MIGHT....SOOOOOOOOOOOO CAN ANYBODY tell me, I would LIKE to know: What's WRONG with living RIGHT?!?!"
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I have been thinkin about this song ALL day today!!! Soooooooo I just wanna say that I am about to rant a little...thats a WARNING...LOL cause I USUALLY don't use my blog to RANT my random feelings and spout my spontaneous emotions...BUT this is REALLY buggin me...to the point that I am SERIOUSLEY considering gettin off of Facebook because of it!!! (I wanna say that this post is really only for Apostolic readears and NOT meant to OFFEND!)
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Okaaaaaaaay so here is the deal. As everyone knows, Micheal Jackson died. Now, I am not tryin to sound, rude, callous or mean when I say this, but in MY world that reallY meant NOTHING. I was like, oh...end of story. I mean this is Micheal Jackson we are talking about...AND to be honest it wasn't for Facebook, I probabley wouldn't have even found out about for several days, like until my dad, who is NOT in church, mentioned it. However, I heard about it right away, ON Facebook, BY APOSTOLIC young people!!! That right there irked me...
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But you know what really, really, really bugged me?!?! What REALLy bugged me is when Apostolic people were posting stuff about his funeral and how it was sad and how their heart just goes out to him and his family. How they are so sad to see such a talented man leave this world...How he was such a good person...WHAT?!?! AND why is it that sooooo many Apostolic young people were concerned about Micheal Jackson's soul being lost...BUT when our peers backslide it is soooooo easy for us to casually say, "i knew that was coming! Sad, but you know, you can't win them all!" NO, THOSE are the people we should be SHEDDING TEARS OVER!!!
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Now, I never knew this man personally, but NEITHER does anyone else!!! There are Apostolic men and woman that are dying and leaving this world behind AND those are the people we should be focusing on...talking about, thinking about.
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Oh but you NO what GOT me MAD?!?! I mean REALLY mad?! And Mary don't get mad...unless you mess with someone I love or the things of God I am just like WHATEVER!!! BUT this got me mad...I said that "I have NOT and will NOT shed a tear over the death of Micheal Jackson." AND I said that he was "GROSS" and you know what?! I got called JUDGEMENTAL for saying that about him...ABOUT Micheal Jackson!?!?!
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I am NOT judgemental!!! I LOVE everyone!!! I am friends with EVERYONE!!! I don't care if you are popluar snob or totally uncool...I will STILL be your friend!!! I am the kinda person that tries to find the beauty in everyone...I CRINGE when I hear someone say that someone is UGLY...that really, really BOTHERS me...just ask a few people...LOL!!! BUT Micheal Jackson WAS gross!!! AND he was gross, NOT because of how GOD created him, but because of how he TRIED to change himself.
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This is a man who's music did NOT glorify God!!! This is a man that was ASHAMED of his color!!! tHIS is a man that had so many surgeries his nose was collapsing!!!! HELLO?!?! AND aside from all that...there are the allegations about him with little boys, that may or may not be true...but I wouldn't be surprised!!!
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It just bothers me, all the stuff that I am seeing come out about the people I grew up with. It seems like EVERYONE is watching TV!!! It USED to be that Videos/movies were ok...but NOW it's TV too. I am seein pictures of APOSTOLIC girls dresses soooooooooo immodestly I am like shocked!!! AND I'll ask another friend, when did so and so back slide and they are like, they didn't!!!! AND I am like but, but, but, did you see that pic they have posted? Did you see what TV show it says they are watching right now?! And they are like oh yeah, don't let it freak you out, I am not sayin I think it's ok, but, thats just the way they are!!!! I am sorry, BUT that FREAKS me out!!! Yes, girls, it is STILL possible to go swimming in MODEST clothes, at the ocean!!! AND yes, there was a time in my life that I struggled with watching television, but the WHOLE time I was doing it, I KNEW that I was WRONG!!!
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People tell me, well if you CAN'T control yourself to NOT sit around watching TV all day long, and you can't control yourslef to ONLY watch the good stuff, then your just NOT very spirtual...You know what YOU are absolutley correct...I am NOT!!! That is the reason why I guard and protect myself...because I know that a dirty joke will crack me up and those comedy shows and soap opera's will capture my attention. I have gotten those little picks for being Little Miss Fun and Little Miss Personality, but in case you havn't noticed, I ain't NEVER gotten NO award for being Little Miss Spirtual!!! ;)
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Furthermore, it also bothers me when I see Apostolic young people following or lifting up any sort of worldly icons!!! I will NOT hang up pictures of Marlyn Monroe in my room, no matter HOW beautiful she was...She represents everything God doesn't want us to be!!! Yeah, Elvis Presley was kinda hot at one time, but I don't want NO pics of some druggie!!! AND I don't want NO purse with Jessica Simpson's name all over it...I don't even know what the chic looks like...HONESTLY!!! When I was in my early teens there was some start that I had a total crush on...but DO you know just HOW DISGUSTED i was when I found out he was BI?!?! tHATS SICK!!! Look at all these little cute girls that are becoming pop stars, they start out soooo sweet and innocent...but Hollywood destroys that...Just look at the Olsen twins, Brittaney Spears, Lindsay Lohan, Hannah Montanna-These are girls that struggle with, anorexia, bulimia, depression, drugs, divorce, indecent exposure, posing nude and homosexuality-I remember, before they were like that-but thats what Hollywood will do!!!
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AND I know EVERYONE is gonna think I am REALLY cRaZy for saying this, but you know when Sarah Palin was running for Vice-President, you know how like in our church's all the girls were going WILD over her, like she dresses so stylish and conservative( I did LOVE her glasses, totally want a fake pair JUST like that) and Like oh my new role model and all that kinda stuff?!
Well, in the back of my head I just kept thinking you know all these Godly woman are totally like lookin up to her, BUT is this who we should be lookin up to?! I mean, is it really possible for a woman, as VICE PRESIDENT of the United States of America, to be submissive to her own husband?!?! I have been told that it TOTALLY is, BUT yeah RIGHT!!! HAHAHAHA!!! If I was Vice president, I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO would NOT EVEN be listening to my husband!!! AND yes, I am sure she would have made a great Vice President, but since she was a Christian, to God, her first duty was to be a wife and mom!!! (Sorry but thats just what I have been taught!)
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At Arizona Camp Meeting, Bro. Weaks preached a message, and in the message he talked about a man that was a cop that went undercover into a gang to bust up the group. But while he was workin undercover, a family member died. This undercover cop was really devestated and much to his dismay, he really didn't get much sympathy from the people in his church. However, when he went back to the gang he was supposed to be bustin up, he told them about his family member dying. AND he remembers this big burly gang member coming over and giving him hug, tellin him he loved him and how he was so sorry to see his brother hurtin. And this underconver cop saw a tear fallin down the gang members cheek in sorrow for him, he says that it was in that moment, that the line between right and wrong began to get blurred.
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It is with this thought in my mind that I have made my decision to get off Facebook. I will be letting my friends know that I am leavin and will be off by the end of the week. Its not because I think I am better or judgemental or any of that Jazz!!! It's because I don't want to have to feel guilty for living by the morals and convictions we were ALL taught...It's because I just wanna know, WHAT"S wrong with LIVING RIGHT? It's because when I see people that are supposed to be living for God, doing bad stuff, I don't want to begin questioning if it really is ok. It's because I don't want my line to get blurred!!!
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P.S. Don't worry, I won't be writing anything this long or serious on here for A long time. Plus, have you all noticed that my blog has totally been lagging?! Its cause of Facebook...it's totally time consuming...but don't worry...tons of STUPID/FUN posts coming up soon...WooooooooohOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! ;)
