Soooooooo the last night of Heritage there was a really awesome move of God and after about two songs, the service just went wild and everyone was worshipping God and praying...it was REALLY awesome!!! However, as I was praying I just felt like really overwhelmed thinking about my life and just trying to figure out where its all at and what's going to happen next..
Maybe, it was just the whole, I just turned 26 and even though I am really involved and do a lot with my church, I am still waiting on God. In October it will have been three years since I found the African refugee kids. Even though a lot of great things have happened with them it feels like there needs to be so much more done and it feels like we are still waiting for a really big break through with them. Its hard to explain but its like I can feel such a strong burden for them but I am just waiting on God, to move but I am not sure for what or how.
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So after the hour and a half of praying, I still didn't feel like I had gotten what I needed from God. Thankfully though everyone decided that they still wanted to have church so they resumed the service. The choir began to sing and they sang a song called, He Knows My Name... He counts the stars, he is in control of everything...he knows my name...every step I take...every tear that I cry...when I am overwhelmed by the pain... I don't know what tomorrow may bring... BUT I know I'll be just fine cause HE KNOWS MY NAME... I had never heard this song before but as I listened to the song something inside me broke and I just started crying cause it just felt sooooooooo GOOD to know that God KNOWS my name...I don't know what will happen BUT he knows!!!
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THEN, just to confirm it to me after the preaching during the actual alter call, all of us girls were gathered together in a circle. We all had our arms around each other and we were all bouncing up and down as the praise singers were singing Baptize me Jesus. Well, I hadn't noticed it when the choir sang it earlier but there is a bridge and the praise singers start singing and it goes, Hang in there! Hang in there! Don't you DARE give up...So as they are singing it Sheree just looks right at me and smiles and just starts singing it to me, she is like, Hang in there, hang in there, don't you DARE give up! Then, she kind looks at me and nods her head matter of factly and says, "The African kids!"
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Sheree really isn't the kinda person that just spouts out flowery words of encouragement...she just aint like that!!! SOOOOOO...It was like the sweetest thing EVER and I really felt like God was just telling me, Hang in there!!! For He counts the stars one and all, He made the mountains and the seas, He is in CONTROL OF EVERYTHING AND HE KNOWS MY NAME!!!!!!!!
