In heaven...

My mommy is in heaven!!! It happened this early this morning at around 4 AM!!! My sis-in-law, Grace was in the room, she works over nights and had a feeling something was going to happen so she asked to get off early to come spend some time with my mom. Grace said that as she was sitting there my mom's breath began to change and her breaths were getting less and less and then she took one big final breath and that was it. There was no struggle, no pain, she just peacefully left this old world behind her. Her favorite song, "Amazing Grace" was playing from the playlist on her phone...

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Last night, before I went to sleep, I hugged her and told her that I was going to miss her so much but that I was so happy for her and that Jesus was waiting for her and it was ok to go, then I told her that poem from the book, "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as i'm living, my mommy you'll be, and I cried and cried and cried on her, then I sang to her through sobs, In the sweet bye and bye, we shall meet on that beautiful shore...

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 Then I went to sleep, and the whole time I was sleeping next to my mom in the recliner, holding her hand,  You guys, yesterday I asked God to please, please, PLEASE let me be there with her when she crossed over and he answered my prayer!!!

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And not only did he answer it, he answered it in just the perfect way because I'm pretty sure I would have just freaked out if I had known she was dying and I couldn't stop it, but even tho I was sleeping, I still got to be there!!!! It means so much to me that I was holding her hand as she stepped into glory land, I will treasure this as long as I live!!!

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And while my heart is broken in the sense that I already miss her so much, heaven is only sweeter now to me and the longing in my heart just grows stronger...I imagine her now in that great cloud of witnesses, cheering us on, one hand holding out to me, beckoning me to keep going, the other hand shaking a golden tambourine, shouting out like she always did in church,

"hallelujah! hallelujah! hallelujah!!!"

 

♥Mary Frances :)

Heaven bound!!!!

As most of you all know, I told you that my mom was not doing well and in December she was diagnosed with kidney failure and she then began getting dialysis treatments. Weeeeeeeelllll, I had dreamed of my mommy getting better buuuuuuuut God had different plans and last week, even with dialysis treatments, she really took a turn for the worst in the physical sense, BETTER in the spiritual sense!!!

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This past Saturday while at the hospital, she told my sister that she wanted to go  home. My sister said, you want us to bring you back home to the  house? She said, No, I want to go home with Jesus!!!

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Then she had all of the family in the hospital room with her and told us she was leaving, to remember to be kind to each other and to always walk in His ways, then we all prayed together! Sunday she came home with hospice to spend the rest of her time there till she leaves this old earth behind.

This was late Saturday morning, Pastor and Sis. Abbott and then they called Bishop Abbott, because he travels around preaching now and they all prayed together!

I wish I could just  hold her hand foreverrrr!!!

Holding hands with her the other day...

 MY HERO!!!

She read her Bible til the very end!!!! 

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 today I put all her stuff animals with her, she always loved stuffed animals like me!!! And I put her tambourine with her, cuz IF she could, she'd be shouting and worshipping about heaven, she was always banging that thing as loud as she could!!! you know what, remember a few years ago she was telling me at WCC that these girls NEEDED to be wearing their skirts LONGER!!! She was like they need to be MORE than JUST covering their knees!!! I was like, Okaaaaaaaay mom, what do you want me to do, I WEAR MY SKIRTS LONG!!! Weeeeeeellll then that very night the preacher was preaching and he was like, GIRLS, your skirts need to be WELL PAST YOUR KNEES!!! Annnnnnnnnnnnnnd let me tell you, I was sitting on completely different side of the conference from my mom, BUUUUUUUUUT at that very moment I knew where she was cuz I could hear her tambourine going off like crazy!!! Oh man, MY IS SOOOO AWESOME!!!

 Her kidney doctor said that he can't give us an exact amount of time that she'll live without dialysis but he estimates at the longest two weeks. For the last two days she's been basically sleeping... and while a part of me is devastated and broken hearted there is another part of me that is sooooo JOYFUL!!! Because You know what this means??? It means she's

ON HER WAY TO HEAVEN!!!

♥Mary Frances :)